addicts..

shut.yr.eyes.n.imagine.nothing's.changed

2006-10-15T00:08:00.000+08:00

Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty and
Everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I'll protect you
>From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doin'
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
(Chorus)
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
Everyone is changing
There's no one left that's real
So make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
'Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
And you could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doin'
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far
(Chorus)
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Oh, nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you where to run away
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you where to run away
.
Just don't change at all. i really can't quite take changes.
.

cruise with me on my flying jet..

2006-09-03T00:30:00.000+08:00

disappearing tastebuds?
decreasing flickerings?
increasing ringing alarms that refuses to go off.
ahh, go away!

life is both a major and a minor key

2006-08-28T19:29:00.000+08:00

nothing too critical circling in my mind currently.
just some random thoughts here and there.

on R's lappy now since he's @ his stuffs, i'm taking the chance to do some virtual talking.
so let's see. i'm taking it fair and holding everything down pretty.
few concerns i'm trying to shrug off my shoulders though.
First up, i've got school coming right up in the coming month and i've a feeling its gonna rock mah socks off for sure.
see, there's school, work, babe, family and friendly friends to fulfil the really empty nodes in my everydays.
Sometimes it amuses me how some dudes can carefully juggle the cruel pieces of life together and not falter at all.

then there's always the struggling home issue that i'm trying hard to paddle ahead and keep afloat.
its probably the hardest stone to unturn cos it seems like a never-ending vicious cycle, how i'm always the 12 yrs old with the folks.

and of course there's you. and how i wish sitting by a corner watching the rain drops fall with a cup of good coffee in our hands isn't all that hard to fulfil. of how happy it'll be to just open my eyes each day to see that familiar smile right beside me. ahh, tests after tests, mountains over hills, tell me there'll always be rainbow after a hardcore rain?

then again, there is no reason to feel sad at all..
i'm gonna be optimistic and count my blessings instead..
the big man must be thinking i'm strong enough to with-hold everything nicely, that's why i'm given 10 fingers instead of 8 to accomplish all tasks at hand without failing any. I have a notorious temper because life wants me to appreciate the good temper inborne in others. I have a typically-caring family who wants to know about everything i do because life wants me to know freedom doesn't come easy at all. See, there's so many things to gain out of nothing, life really ain't all that dangerous eh?

e.g.o

2006-06-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

today, an unsinkable came forthright
the unspoken of it disguised as a twist of knife
that guileless rapid became unambiguous
the line of thoughts that follow runs deep

i really never liked track backs.

2006-06-25T17:38:00.000+08:00

piled on the top of my to-watch list! Finally! k and s is gonna collaborate once more!

songs about you

2006-06-24T13:56:00.000+08:00

::hail to world cup::
(so slam me but i still have to say this,i hate brazil! imo, they're just so over-rated!)

Life:
last week was hell wicked.
managed a wholesome hunky-dory 4 days with k (i so miss it, now that i come to think about it)
he was great as ever, proving to me once again you do need love to light the shadows on your face.

So this week drove by with my usual nonchalant attitude at work which danced drastically to another tune once the clock hits 1730 hrs every single day.

Thoughts:
Sometimes i wished i didn't think too much, wished my mind wouldn'nt overload itself with all the yackety-yak that went on throughout the week.
I'm sorta learning too, to rid me of those undesirable parts of me. ahh, mind over matters m used to say.
more like learn from experience i say. the more dramatic the experience, the greater is the force to compel me to change.
just look at jean grey, she died cos of phoenix!

End:
I wanna watch scary movie 4 this week, still learn to rid me undesirables, sleep 'nough, smile 'nough, bonus will be when k do well for his paper!

2006-06-24T13:54:00.000+08:00

13 Jun - random day out with him always starts with a capital F. F-U-N!

look how the sun shines on your face!

2006-05-29T20:49:00.000+08:00

-alil update-

days been really good, even the clouds form into a smile whenever we walk by. .

it feels as if... nothing else really bothers as long as the two birds chirp together. .

baby, its a wild dragon chase anyways..

2006-04-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

where are all my sugarcoated candies?

stifling times.. obliterated with a blink of one's eye.

my penchant for cynicism prove only too detrimental.

but easy baby, at least one aspect haven't veered off course.

hopefully it won't, of course.
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2006-02-01T03:29:00.000+08:00

us and the man's baby barley! just don't ask me how or when or what. he was a very very pleasant surprise and santa's pressie for me last year! muahaha.. -winks-

2006-02-01T03:22:00.000+08:00

ahem. i don't believe i need no intro here. the man of the man of the man!

you could be my unintended

2006-01-02T10:10:00.000+08:00

Merrry christmas and a happy happy new 2006!
i just can't tear my ears off this song.
Muse is such a splendid 3 men band!
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Muse - Time is running out
I think I'm drowning
Asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
That you've created
You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction
You will be the death of me
You will be the death of me
Bury it I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted
Now that you know I'm trapped
Sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation
You will squeeze the life out of me
Bury it I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
And our time is running out
And our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this
ooooohh
You will suck the life out of me
Bury it I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
And our time is running out
And our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this? Ooooohh

wriggle wriggle my toes just won't giggle

2005-11-29T16:19:00.000+08:00

wanted to do something grotesque - to post my toes' pictography
and you might wanna thank god that i dropped the idea eventually. ha.
then again, its something that won't happen again in a good time to come. (i hope and pray!)

well, you and i both belong to a very blur grey area.
and i know i might get really irrational about stuffs concerning you and your future prospect,
but i know too that in that inner circle of my heart,
i hope for the best for you as much as i hope for the best for me.
i've got this uber-sickening fear in me tellin' me there's a possibility
we'll get stucked in this stage for a long time.

for me, its pretty tough since i'm tired of trash relationships and for the first time in my life,
i'm really searchin' for a niche in my life or so to speak.
i don't know when will i get my chance for now
cos i think i might just get conformed in singleton town for quite a while this time though.

see i hate the idea of waiting and hoping but i never seem to get tired of doin so either - perhaps cos i know at the end of it all, there'll surely be something worthwhile to gain from everything good or bad..

impossible attitude

2005-11-12T17:10:00.000+08:00

blurry - puddle of mudd

Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty and
Everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I'll protect you
>From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doin'
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
(Chorus)
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
Everyone is changing
There's no one left that's real
So make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
'Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
And you could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doin'
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far
(Chorus)
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Oh, nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you where to run away
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you where to run away
(Chorus)
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
NOOOOOOOO! This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
Take it all away
Pain ya gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me

i have a sickening feelin' it'll take me ages to find you again.
this is so self-declared-drown-myself-in-sorrow depression.
and i don't do depressions.
but i just can't forget you, can't you see?

the quiet things that no one ever knows

2005-10-02T21:42:00.000+08:00

all that can be perfect can't be perfected
its really through the ultimate end, then will i start thinkin' bout our beginnings.
i came across our photos. you're no longer coloured baby.
i didn't know about determination then.
i couldn't even see you would be my future
i wish i didn't fool around then..
then perhaps i wouldn't be the only one left in that pic now.

you're really fuckin special.
can i have another you?
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It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life Passes things,
get more comfortable
Everything is going right
And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain
Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown,
oh We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
Yeah, I know we're cool
And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool

where did cupid go to when his evil twin comes on?

2005-07-03T16:03:00.000+08:00

was just talking to bird ealier on, and we touched on how there are seasons of breakups and attaches.

isn't it just funny how these seasons come along?

if only i can take an eraser and rub away all the memories left in my head. sometimes i just wanna be an amnesiac. a selective one. these memories are like a drug, i don't wanna keep it but i know too that it'll kill me if it doesn't exist at all...

took a trip down tampines yesterday and so many beautiful memories came on.
its funny how the east can really cheer me up almost immediately. i just love that place.

and you, though we've parted and all, i still really appreciate the fact that you still care so much. and everytime i think about you, i just can't help crying. i mean, we've got such a beautiful past. everytime i think about the times i spent over at your place just kidding ard and all, this pierce would penetrate my heart almost immediately and inevitably. i really thought i could hold onto your hand and walk on for as long. but sorry, i got lost along the way. i really tried threading back to the original path, but its just like rails that can't fit, i couldn't get back on track at all. and now i can only live on with the memories you've littered all over my head...

//Looking backas lovers go walking past... All of my life... Wondering how they met and what makes it last If I found the place Would I recognize the face?

Creep

2005-06-07T14:03:00.000+08:00

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
But I 'm a creep
I 'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She run, run, run run Run

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

single ticket. single trip.

2005-06-04T17:50:00.000+08:00

its like cruisin aimlessly on a bike alone.
its like sharing an ice cream alone.
its like your bed is so empty.
its like no one else fighting for the remote control.
its like showering alone.
its like taking a bus with noone's arm around you.
its like seeing only 1 kite in the sky with no strings attached at the other end.
its like sitting in a car with no driver.
its like saturday afternoons with yourself.
its like walking down the streets envying couples.
its like choking on your own tears.
its like having coffee sessions with people from other tables
its like holding hands with air.
its like a bicycle with no wheels.
its like its gone forever..

scarlet

2005-05-16T20:25:00.000+08:00

currently at a selegie internet cafe with lac.
i ended last week on a pretty high note.
kudos to lac and me, we're now almost one yr old!
explored chinatown on saturday when we stayed at scarlet, this boutique hotel off erskine road.
it's abit pricey, but woah.. it's well worth the chinks man.
lac was so excited the whole time, she only managed to fall asleep in the mornin.
wished we stayed alil longer though, but we were so cash-strapped.
The hotel's really cool too,and the people's really warm and the room's cosy and comfortable.
i've got no complaints at all!
shall post some photos taken there one fine day.

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At Work: Been so caught up at work lately. So many things to do, so many deadlines to meet, so little time to complete. thank god, i could manage a breather this one or two days before i conk out due to stress. i really needa hop to another job that commands a much much better pay.

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lest i don't get the chance and time to post another entry.
lac, cheers to you:

y'know what i'm gonna say, yeah, its those Thank you words.
I don't know how long would it take for me to ever thank ya enough
for every little minute things you did for me.
and i know i'm that almost perfect girlfriend if i don't have my pms that goes on for a whole month sometimes.
hurhur. Then again, its just one bad point versus many other good points what! ;)
can't really give ya a big fat gift material-wise, but hey, think it should be good enough a gift if i were to wrap myself up in a box and send it to your doorstep. righto?
We'll have that dinner we promised each other on wednesday yeah.
happy first year lil' monster.

I SHOULD STOP SWAYING

2005-05-01T18:04:00.000+08:00

finally met up with r after a long time of procrastination and whatsoever.
story me about finding another half man, seems like all the good friends finally got hitched. i should be happy for them. i mean i am happy for them of course. But well, them getting hitched would mean less opportunity for me to get my ass on their babies. and so cynically, i can't get over that.

It's so silly how i keep on reminiscing about the poly times but yet do nothing about reliving those memories with the people who created it along with me. Perhaps i just can't come to terms with how everyone's lifestyle evolved 360 . including mine. So quaint how two people who walk side-by-side together everyday could change too.

Two cents worth of my situation now. I'm still as unfocused as ever. Perhaps that's the only thing that didn't really change about me. I fear day and night i'd become a shrewd jackass ever since someone told me i've became rude-r and crude-r. sigh, whatever that brings me to. And what's new, Lorraine Lim Chia Hui still can't make up her retarded mind on which direction in life she'll wanna move along to. Oh, almost forgot to mention how my craving and appetite for dangerous doings resurrected. ha. I'm so screwed man. Some people just never can learn.

2005-04-10T15:35:00.000+08:00

Pink is the colour of passion. ha!

truth is

2005-03-12T23:02:00.000+08:00

this site, almost forgotten
my sky, mundane with occasional clusters of clouds
road ahead, unmotivated and nothing pre-laid
bird is glowin with her new-found dove
trust me, she can't get any rosier
wish you guys many happy days ahead =)

for me, i need to rid myself of unhealthy routines
gonna enjoy some stay-in time tonight
and its crazy how i can't chuck those chips and chocolates
out of the window

To Ng small six

2005-02-12T13:27:00.000+08:00

mmm. you are to me . . .

- a sturdy pillar of support
- a sole dependency
- a best friend
- the one i look for when i meet with crashes
- a laughter-inducing machine
- the one i dash to when i need to hide and grumble
- an eye candy
- the tolerant half of me
- a good listening ear
- my world
- my universe
- my all

happy valentine's, sweet one.
its our first together, definitely not the last though.
i never thought two ordinary beings could churn out something so extraordinary.
i - love - you.

sunrise monster

2005-01-30T01:33:00.000+08:00

If it wasn't for you I would never be able to spit this
your good suddenly distinguished how checkered that past totally was.

one by one they all fall down....

2005-01-25T10:07:00.000+08:00

the breeze is good this morning and so's the morning rays.
everything feels good when you're on a self-proclaimed off day.
i'm bored with my job. finally. ha.
im running late actually. only half hour more before the d comes round my place.
donkey monkey ages since the d came by.

oh, hey nannie! haha. where's the Faaang?
got gf disappeared liao. tsk...

update

2005-01-10T01:03:00.000+08:00

update.
most of my time with b's happy as usual.
met up with friends 2 days back. fun.
parents? dont even mention their existence twice in front of me.
they like tellin me, once a child, always a child.
and so i'm living my life as a 15. still bogged down by rules and curfews.
laugh yr ass off but yeah, i'm miserable.
miserable cos they refuse to let me fly.
they refuse to accept a growing me.

2004-12-26T22:39:00.001+08:00

guess who!

2004-12-26T22:39:00.000+08:00

sly sly sly

2004-12-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

i like him!

2004-12-12T16:43:00.000+08:00

all i want for christmas is .......

my two front teeth.. my two front teeth..

tsk. pics are blur. i'm aware. then again, i'm lazy to amend it.

downunder, some takes from downunder.
[ooh, realised that was once nana's nick! ha!]

2004-12-12T15:44:00.000+08:00

snap snap snap

and the birds and the trees and the beautiful flowers

2004-11-25T13:49:00.000+08:00

work is like a huge mouth of fire threatening to devour every inch of me.
i'm a liar dressed in white.
sue me?
i'm so gonna miss snuggling up to you.

a kiss from the rose on the grey

2004-11-18T21:58:00.000+08:00

There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea
You, became the light on the dark side of me
Love remains, a drug that's the high and not the pill
But did you know that when it snows
My eyes become large
And the light that you shine can't be seen?
Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey
Ooh, the more I get of you, the stranger it feels yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the grey
There is so much a man can tell you
So much he can say
You remain my power, my pleasure, my pain
Baby, To me, you're like a growing
Addiction that I can't deny
Won't you tell me, is that healthy, baby?
But did you know that when it snows
My eyes become large
And the light that you shine can't be seen?

i hate to say this but when its good, its really good.
and when its sour, its gets so bitter i can hardly see nothin else but flood in my vision.
its almost dramatic how everything changes in a matter of seconds,
but that's how it is, they tell me.
that's how we grow, they say.
but somehow, i feel more like the thorns that's forcing its way outta a beautiful young black rose. you're the young black rose i can't deny myself of..

i seldom enjoy drawing fuller details of my picture

but i'm in for the mood where the sinner meets the saint

and i suggest you skip this lengthy part if you dont happen to be the saint in my picture

[ i almost laughed when i heard myself sayin that its the rose the thorn can't do without and not vice versa.

you know there's a theory somewhere in my physics book, about how you'll get the exact amount of pain when you hit a person?

yea, i do better. i get twice the amount of pain when i prick you.

i don't know why. i just had to react the wrong way sometimes even though i already knew its wrong.

here's the twist. just when i thought i satisfied my sadistic appetite to err, the pain starts to creep in 280km/hr.

sometimes i choose to ignore the pain, dust it away like some dirt caught on your shirt, square my shoulders and face you with that smirk on my face.

but sometimes i can't. just like now.

i get drunk so easily in anger.

i do what drunkards do when they're high.

and like you told me, you dont really mean what you said when you're drunk.

ditto. i know my words can sometimes scream much hurt and frustration into you

IGNORE if you could, i know its hard.

you haven't really seen the worse in me, nor have i seen the wicked part of you.

like i said before, i see my first heartbreaker when i met ya.

its annoying for me cos i'm sinkin myself in a pit of quicksand. i can't believe it.

anyways, that's not really the point. i dont even know whats my stand.

but i didn't have a stand when i began this.

i just needed some kinda release from where our vehicle strayed on the narrow course earlier on.

and no, i wont ever fall for a cranky, insecure, low-confidence portrait.

i'm not like that. and i won't be.

i'm sorry i kick up a big fuss about my aussie trip later next week.

i just hate the thought of being far away from friends and happenings and of course you, for 1/2 a month. only. yeah.

i'll enjoy my trip and you, make full use of this breakaway

just dont get caught. -chuckles- ]

2004-11-18T21:41:00.000+08:00

watch this!

2004-11-18T21:40:00.002+08:00

muah!

2004-11-18T21:40:00.001+08:00

at a lil place called twin tower

2004-11-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

a time for some lil' monkey doin's

2004-11-18T21:39:00.001+08:00

shoes and uh.. downunder...

2004-11-18T21:39:00.000+08:00

mickey mania!

2004-11-18T21:38:00.001+08:00

our shots

2004-11-18T21:38:00.000+08:00

zoukees

2004-11-18T21:37:00.001+08:00

other shots

2004-11-18T21:37:00.000+08:00

some shots

im the biggest mistake.

2004-11-11T13:01:00.000+08:00

and so goes the story of how a fool mistook a swan for a duck
you were wronged
irrevocable, the words i spouted - again
irreversible, the emotions you went thru
irredeemable, is the guilt im feeling
irrecoverable, is the night lost in the heat of my temper
incorrigible, am i

unforgivable, are you?

cos she's got bette davis eys.

2004-11-06T11:56:00.000+08:00

not the weed, but the flower

just that you're growing at the wrong tower.

my poly friendly friends....

i missed you guys greatly.

suddenly, theres the urge to rewind back to how we first started off,
not as friends, but strangers.
back to not just classmates, but chums.
back to not just chums but friends.

although i've totally coward into my hermit life, the laughter and tears we shared are still in my thoughts.
let's do a chalet, shall we?

birdie... there, your stuff.

2004-10-24T14:44:00.000+08:00

yep. photos up.. =)

bird's bash

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/mindcircling/slideshow?.dir=/aa42&.src=ph

troppo-ing

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/mindcircling/slideshow?.dir=/7db0&.src=ph

2004-10-24T10:52:00.000+08:00

20 days from now: my kl magic
been at work.
not as bad as i supposed it to be.
at least the breaks in between are good enough to cover up for the bad part of working.

i graduated.
i hope everyone did too.
birdie... sorry the pics are takin that long. im so lazy to get the card outta the cam and start uploadin it.
sighhh. will do so by tonight. promise.

everyone's obsessed with bar troppo.
im not so though.
though i like the band, the pool table and the ambience.
e people there's cool and friendly especially one of them
who really left a deep impression on me.

hey jem! whos the girl beside ya when i bumped into ya in town?
shes like damn pretty la. wahahah.
okay. have a nice and cheery sunday everyone.

take those casts away...

2004-10-14T01:20:00.000+08:00

never been chirpier.
never loved seeing you more.
never wanted to lose that chance of hearing e words
that took a pain-staking 5 months to form outta your lips.
you're e strongest in my heart.
i love you.

you call them things with fangs.

2004-10-12T22:22:00.000+08:00

them lace's loose

suit ain't pressed nicely

tangled hair with bristled ends

kettle's hooting away

lost that mind?

where am i?

questions

2004-10-10T22:03:00.000+08:00

think:

does she/he affect you more than you affect her/him?

would you rather be implosive or explosive?

are you implicit or explicit?

just came back from la kopi session with parents.
weirdly, i enjoyed the time with them.
its been a looooong time.

again

2004-10-10T17:14:00.000+08:00

not been in the right mood for the right occasions.
its like letting go a balloon and see it float aimlessly..
till it burst.
and the splattered pieces show my reflections.

i dont know if it were the exams tt tripped me
i dont really know what came over me.
and you, thanks for blowing the dark clouds away.
i know too theres a limit to how long that breath will last.
i will do something. i will do something.

what lies underneath it all?

2004-10-10T16:51:00.000+08:00

scenario:
me and kad got caught in ww2
then we were in this house. e jappies were comin soon we all know
time passed on like a detonated bomb.
then there were pple askin us to hide in cupboards.
then they stacked piles after piles of thick blankets on us to cover us up.
they even got us bottles of water and oxygen tanks to last us till the end of the war.
which means we were to hide in the cupboard till the war ended.
which means we were to hide there for like eternity.
and so we did.
and then we could hear sounds of death ringin thru our ears.
then we heard footsteps hovering around us.
we stayed as still as possible.
we were scared. . .

my mother came into my room and rolled up the blinds.
there goes my out-of-this-world dream.
i really felt we were right there.
shivers.

2004-10-10T16:22:00.000+08:00

Ubin Day!

2004-10-10T16:21:00.000+08:00

Sunday, october 2nd

low

2004-09-29T18:00:00.000+08:00

my surroundings my shooting range.
people around, my targets.

temperature's been up
and so have yours
and my thoughts, jumbled
its not that cosy in here anymore, is it?

good news for the people who love bad news

2004-09-29T13:40:00.000+08:00

caught 'wo cai wo cai' earlier on.
then they were on this topic of guys who ask for another chance at a rs whom they first chose to leave.
then jacky wu gave this reason: 'the road travelled is easier to walk'
*shakes head vehemently*
i disagree.
see, on the very day one decided to pack up and walk away
the very road that you once walked would be under constuction already.
and since its under construction, you'll expect repairs to be made to bad paths
and so on and so forth.
so by the time you're ready to turn around and re-walk that path.
nothing will be the same again.
aight?

anyways, it was lantern fest last night.
did all u party people have your lil fun playin with those candles, sparklers and lanterns?

2004-09-29T13:14:00.000+08:00

fireworks at bishan park last night! ha!

2004-09-29T13:13:00.000+08:00

c is for cookie and cookie is for me. nahhh. she meant to draw a circle. nods.

2004-09-29T13:10:00.000+08:00

im attempting to draw a heart. urgh.. half a heart?

2004-09-29T13:07:00.001+08:00

arsonist at work

2004-09-29T13:06:00.000+08:00

lanterns of the day

late night with raine on power B.I.T.C.H fm

2004-09-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

**the following dialogue contains fragments of big-time ficticious information.

welcome to the island's most popular late night show with me.

during this hour, we'll be dishing out the latest, most hottest gossips in town!

but before that, let us go to the phone line and hear a short segment from this very very handsome homegrown somebody from the northeast part of our sunny singapore!

Dj.Me: Welcome to Dj. Me's late night talk show! This is the perfect place for you to spill the beans over the top secrets in your life and talk about your innermost thoughts without having to fear for any dire consequences-should there be any.

Mr. Jeremy HotBod: YiP!! waddddddurp!

Dj.Me: Ahem, thanks for the very hearty address to avid listeners of B.I.T.C.H fm! Anyways, thanks to some insider information, i heard that you've been hitting the gym really often now to build up and keep up that muscular hot bodehhh(ooohhh... imagine a picture perfect bronze body shimmering in droplets of perspiration trickling down that well-moulded chest and heavily-pumped packs of eight.. woohh). So say, do you have girls swarming around you all the time when you hit the streets of singapore?

Mr.Jeremy HotBod: well, yes. ive been hitting the gym really often. As you know, men like me, can't afford to waste time on other things except to look good. And yeah, i can't deny i have 8 bodyguards walking around me all the time should any female fans out there launch a surprise attack on my well-shaped biceps and abs. you know how taxing it is to get this perfect bodehh of mine?

At this point, Mr. Jeremy Hotbod starts flexing his chest muscle through the peekaboo top that he's wearing and starts growling like a little lion lookin out for its next prey. (ooh! how teasing!)

[and in DJ.Me's mind, she thinks: okay, shit. mr. hottie's hitting on me! mmmm. what should i do!?!]

DJ.Me: Alright! with that. we shall go for a short commercial break of approximately half an hour or so! Thanks for stayin tune to the coolest most popular late night show with me! Enjoy the medleys in the mean while!*looks into Mr. Jeremy Hotbod's sparkling eyes* uh hem.. so... gorgeous... you were saying you wanna show me something in your car?

. . . . . . . to be continued

last night, i heard them inner thoughts say..

2004-09-22T18:09:00.000+08:00

bah. 3rd time im writing this entry.
i swear my net likes burping alot.

.updates.

school
mary had a lil lamb lil lamb lil lamb. and they both skipped school to play.

work
lil lamb eats whatever mary gives.

love
mary had a lil lamb lil lamb lil lamb. and they both lived happily ever after.

health
throats not showin mercy.
can't they just make peace for good?

wealth
nobody said a thing bout mary bein a poor bitch?
now im tellin ya.

.fullstop.

2004-09-15T22:56:00.000+08:00

the engine's still roarin.
but the boat's headed a different direction.

deadly revival II

2004-09-11T13:52:00.000+08:00

after days of inactivity, patient was pronounced a vegetable.
everyone looked on with a heavy heart as it lay there, still as can be.
the tag at the foot of the corpse read: 'sony'
no one anticipated a second miracle.
everyone knew miracles don't come that easy.

suddenly, at the corner of my eye, i noticed an unusual jump in the signal.
then it went slightly straight again. then it jumped back up.
it spells a life.

it spells the rebirth of my tee610.

3 cheers for my lil mighty hero.
she certainly enjoys teasin the shit outta me.

last night was cool.
got our fill of laughters, booze and alil boogie woogie-ing.
cy had shisha at our usual.
then it was obar.
don't reeaally fancy the place.
though contradictively, i always had my share of fun there.
then to rav.
then to another pub i can't even rem what name.
i was drained.
we got home.
shut-eye, concuss.
then e bastard was grumbling.
and i so wanted to laugh cos she looked so like some grumpy old drunkard.
and so concuss did we.

and now. im wide-awake with that half wanna-puke, half wanna-eat feelin.
i feel like im walkin with flippers on.

trifling thursday

2004-09-10T16:10:00.000+08:00

my precious sony tee610,

i am ashamed for handling you with carelessness.
ever since you left, my spirit is a mess.
but i can't understand why this time round you refuse to be revived.
is it not that i don't treasure you enough in my life?

you were the memory that held all those numbers...
without you, everything's a chaotic lumber.
i regret that moment of fumble,
could you empathise, wake up and stop my daily grumbles?

your love,
lonely lola cherry cola.

rage against time

2004-09-09T13:40:00.000+08:00

courtesy of jer's countless encouragements, i've decided to squeeze time in to write a few sentence, lest my blog get deemed stagnant again.

(when the first pimple started blossomin on my cheek)
pimple no.1: yay! i've got the whole piece of land to myself!

(when pimple 2 stepped in to join in the competition)
pimple no.2: say what? i wanna join in the fun too!
and so, pimple 2 grew out of nowhere and planted itself right below no.1.

in hopes of spreadin their territories, they mated.
and then arranged a nice cosy nest right at the forehead for their baby.

ah..picture perfect happy family of three.

felicity is. . .

2004-09-05T13:14:00.000+08:00

when i open my eyes in the mornings and see you beside.

music at zouk was a tad borin last night. not my kind. not my kind. i wanted so much to boogie woogie. friends were good last night. so long since we've all met up. and weichi.. when you gonna propose to me seriously with a proper ring? heh.
if not for her presence. i think i woulda been reduced to tears for massive boredom.

and sorry jer!.. i think i went overboard with my teasing. you're no stupid, neither are you a bastard let alone a fucker. and i know too that you know im only kidding. promise i'll introduce you properly to friends aye! and ooh.. keep the rats well-fed! catch my drift? -winks-

just another ordinary stay-in sunday.

ooh.. someone's gettin older!

2004-09-02T00:40:00.000+08:00

*drum rolls*

Happy Birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to GEORGIEBOY...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

just back from a long walk. shiok. wahaha.
im all smiles today!

be somebody

2004-09-01T02:18:00.000+08:00

yay. finally done.

doo doo doo.

Jeremyyyy... lookie here.. i'm blogging.

B L O G G I N G.

oh.. and im havin fun with the cam and mic!

my guess is..its gonna keep me bounded to my comp these days.

not bad at all.

everyone's askin... how's yr bike? or your car?

my answer: another word and i'll bite. i mean it.

2004-09-01T00:03:00.003+08:00

rter

2004-09-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

ththe

2004-09-01T00:03:00.001+08:00

2004-09-01T00:03:00.000+08:00

hht

2004-09-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

dfsd

2004-09-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

gdfg

michico latino

2004-08-31T23:38:00.000+08:00

thanks lauren! for helpin me with the merging!
heh. see. you get commemorated here! whaha.

anyways, spent the whole evening tryin to fix up the damned blog.

and was ransackin thru my entire room when i found these pics!

cool balls. you gotta see how cuckoo one can get!

2004-08-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

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watashiwa Akimoto Michiyo des! heh.

im battling a war.
its within me.
its in me.
its right there.
at my throat.
The devil bacteria vs the angelic healthy throat.
current score: 3-2
close fight.
the bacteria's overpowerin'.
but everyone knows..
THE DEVIL NEVER OUTLAST.
And so i will persevere to the very last moment
till the devils are completely wiped out.
every single tiny bit. nods.

2004-08-27T14:14:00.000+08:00

i watched on as she slowly bites on a forbidden fruit...

2004-08-27T00:44:00.000+08:00

chanced upon a really digustin' insect today.

its so digustin it got me feelin sorry for it.

Then again. i've got other more important things on my mind.

like flippin my hair or somethin.

school stinks as usual.

its durin thee afterschools tt the highlights of my life comes on.

and jer.... ok ok! i'll blog more. but my life not as exciting as yours ley!
how like tt?

2004-08-18T15:28:00.000+08:00

"Oh look what you've done
you've made a fool of everyone
oh it seems like such fun
until you lose what you have won..."

alil girl had difficulties crossing this drain until she came upon this wooden plank and thought what luck she's got. As she took her first step across, the plank started giving way from underneath and she fell right into the drain.

some stuff you never can trust from the outlook.
for all you know, everyone's a wolf in sheep's skin.

happy happy happy!

2004-08-15T18:17:00.000+08:00

raine passed her advance like finally!

yippee yay!

my national day 2004

2004-08-10T23:22:00.000+08:00

everyday right after terms was...

swell swell swell.

fun fun fun.

for that moment, i forgot what schoolwork was.

i'm missin the fun already.

to sir with love...

2004-08-02T22:01:00.000+08:00

"and you will be

like the ominous sea

surrounding us in everlasting memory."

i am affected. i think i loved him somewhere somehow.

this man, who ran along and toughened us thru all the gruelin torturous deeds.

now i know, when they say,

some love come wicked. some love come sweet.

his love for us, came as harsh as can be.

but thru it all, he subconsciously did

leave us unforgettable times,

ones that we'll never again find,

throughout the whole of our lives.

macritchieeee

2004-08-01T03:04:00.000+08:00

back from a lil ride from rui.

was supposed to do alot of other things.

was supposed to be at home.

was supposed to stick my nose in a chunk of books.

was supposed to meet them for a good night of gruelin intensive studyin session.

was supposed to be done with broadband.

i got nothing done.

and when the coffee's bland..

2004-07-26T20:39:00.000+08:00

we all concluded that this month haven't been the most smooth-sailin.

sigh. and something tells me august is gonna be a much tougher month to see thru.

yun, don't get so vexed over financial matters aye.

you looked highly disturbed this afternoon opp sch man.

we shall all scrimp and save to tide over these months. si pls dont overwork yrself!

worse come to worst, less ktv, less boogie-woogieing around!

and we're all behind you 101% for your bikey lessons! =)

and seeing bmw tt day was damn quaint.

and seein him drinkin n smokin was even worse.

and it's funny this emotional thing we just can't seem to detach ourselves off.

but of course, our chapter for now's closed already. perhaps someday we'll write a book together again.or perhaps never.

-shrugs-

strangely, i feel glad to be at home today.

and the best part's im home alone.

and i'm loving this lone evening. heh.

raine's gonna nap. right about now.

sorry god, i just had a forbidden fruit from tt tree.

2004-07-22T01:53:00.000+08:00

what if the day comes when you:

wake up suddenly to realise the person sleepin beside you came thither incognito?

feel like shooting every single human being to death then hide in the comfort of your own 4 walls, enjoying the peace?

find out by chance that your partner practice cannibalism?

turn into an unfeeling machine with no conscious left?

lose your sense of humour. like all of it?

realise seekin solace in non-living things make more sense than whining to living things?

well, just random stupendous thoughts gg thru my mind.

i'm a tired soul. so pardon those gross parts. bear in mind, its just hypothesis.

oh by the way, i'm getting weary...

of being me. not that i'm angelic to begin with.

in case nobody realised, i am cold-blooded.

george just helped relieve these 2 pain in my nerves:

Georgieboyz (All dogs go to heaven... I miss you so, hope you're happy there my love...) says:

how've u managing? i'm getting crap... bank capital requirements...sheesh
i'm a black butterfly. says:

same!
i'm a black butterfly. says:

wahahah
i'm a black butterfly. says:

its harder than i thought
Georgieboyz (All dogs go to heaven... I miss you so, hope you're happy there my love...) says:

aiyai
Georgieboyz (All dogs go to heaven... I miss you so, hope you're happy there my love...) says:

well.. just try first
Georgieboyz (All dogs go to heaven... I miss you so, hope you're happy there my love...) says:

if cannot then cannot lor
Georgieboyz (All dogs go to heaven... I miss you so, hope you're happy there my love...) says:

then we cry in front of her...wahahaha

i'm a black butterfly. says:

wahhahaha
i'm a black butterfly. says:

i am stressed.
Georgieboyz (All dogs go to heaven... I miss you so, hope you're happy there my love...) says:

*hugs* relax lah
Georgieboyz (All dogs go to heaven... I miss you so, hope you're happy there my love...) says:

if not u're not gonna get ur phone back
Georgieboyz (All dogs go to heaven... I miss you so, hope you're happy there my love...) says:

how to collect it back if u're admitted into the hougang chalet?

i'm a black butterfly. says:
george!

ok. its not funny. but that is me. crackin at the silliest jokes.

hear me RoaRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

2004-07-20T04:42:00.000+08:00

last few hours at mt. faber.

2004-07-20T03:28:00.003+08:00

palssss

2004-07-20T03:28:00.002+08:00

all smiles!

2004-07-20T03:28:00.001+08:00

kisses!

2004-07-20T03:28:00.000+08:00

our picture perfect sunday ...

.First times.

2004-07-20T00:21:00.000+08:00

was alil lazy to blog a while ago.

until i receive a msg askin me to open up the door and collect a gift.

you must be thinking what a weird way it is to pass someone something.

but. that is just him.

this familiar yet conventional way of surprising me.

Some people seriously don't change abit.

not that its a crime. its just so... teasing. i don't know how to put it to words.

-------------------------------------

Anyways, on a lighter note.

Yes Kad, i have to super agree with you.

raine had a hell Good time at seng's.

people i never dreamt would come, came. and from the bottom of my heart. i really appreciate it. even if it means staying just a few moments.

And to everyone who made 17th july 04 a beautiful day to stamp it down permanently in my memory:

Bird!: You've been the sweetest, really. I can't imagine receiving beautiful handmade flowers from you after 16 years of my life with you around! Thanks so muchhhh. you'll always be my greatest qing mei zhu ma!

Kaddy!: Something like carlsberg, you're probably the best gal pal besides livvy, i can ask and hope for in poly. Thanks for the jeansy from you guys. And thanks so much for sparing me your busy fridae eh. I reaaaally appreciate all the effort and time spent. (not forgetting how cash-strapped you are for the moment) Love ya la.

Yam!: Hey goodlooker, i know you're a busy workin boy. but hey, thanks for makin the trip down and taking time off for old me. And you're like the only friendly guy who went around socialising with everyone else. you've made my time hell easier. And yes, i still want my helmet. i don't care bout the price. i JUST WANT MY HELMET! heehee. THANKS eh! =)

Ric, Seng, Mel (korX2!?!) : The best lab pals i can have la. know it was alil boring for you guys but yeah, thanks for the 3 treats and the cheering on part! heehee. Kum Siah kum siah!

Alvin : Wow. boy, am i amazed at your memory power. been almost 5 years and you still remembered this day. Sorry for the hassle of running around just to get to where i was! you'll never guess how touched i am to see you after like a zillion years of disappearing act. And yeah, i need a damn string to hang up that jigsaw man! hee. Thanks for everything.

Jemmy and Cher: Pretty boy and pretty girly, thanks for the well wishes! and of course, thanks for not forgetting. heehee. you guys keep it strong and going on .. you've gotta keep up the perfect couple image i have for you guys!

JeremyyyyyiipPPP!!: heehee. hey boy, thanks for the yips! and merry christmas and happy new years! hehee. Funny la you. nobody wish someone like tt one lor! (you know my tone!) Sorry bout saturday. heehee. if only i had 48 hours that day, i woulda drag you to cheeky's with them and rock on the whole night!

And of course, Mr. A:

I know i repeated the xie xie word like 1707 times in this post, but i still wanna say it again. you you you... i can never appreciate enough. having you with me this birthday's probably the best thing i can ever wish for. The weekend with you, -my- is really something i wanna do over and over again for long. Not forgetting the perfect 1807. wow. fancy fulfiling so many first times in my entire life in just a single day. First time this country bumpkin got on a cable car, first time i made it and lasted an entire day in sentosa with fine weather. (and i mean, really really fine weather!). First time i went to dolphin lagoon. First time i sat on an open-top sentosa bus. (the breeze was... whooo! power!) First time i went to mount faber and really got to enjoy a whole scene of the most fantastic sunset. And on top of all, the best part is i got to spend it with you. i really don't wanna start giving everyone goosebumps. hee. you know la huh. love ya baby. really do.

Alright, i know im gettin the yawns from y'all already. I just really really appreciate every single one who made my day a special happy one. Be it the gifts, your presence, simple smses, just a single call... everything. I love it. you guys rockkkkkkk! heee. yep, i love all of ya! heehee. arigatou eh!

apel is good for health.

2004-07-14T00:43:00.000+08:00

our cold moments of the day

our convo at 4 plus pm during apel.

kad: what's up for lunch?
raine: dinner.
liv lol.

our convo at 6 plus at ed's shop.

bird shows us why her foot hurts.
kad n raine: its corn. damn pain.
bird: -throws kad a dirty look- your jiagong just passed me her corn virus. how?
raine rotlol.

our convo at 7 plus when jov was sitted right outside fusion.

jovan: -solemn face- do i look like something?
kad, bird, me: what?
jovan: Men(2) Shen(2) [direct translation: door god] -uses brolly as weapon-
everybody lol.

what's pretty poly days to do without pretty poly gal pals?

thanks pretty(s). love the stupid moments we share each day. our corny sense of humour-unmatchable.

i hate to think about this, but where will we be heading after poly's over?

walk the line. you know you just can't fight it.

2004-07-13T12:33:00.000+08:00

would you rather be the queen of a trade or a jack of all trades?

i would rather the latter. no why.

why do fingernails shoot up so fast while hair take eons to grow?

i would rather the latter grow faster.

-stretches- i shall start afresh on my lazy antics on this mundane tuesday afternoon.

reports. reports. reports. can't stop whining.

no offence. i just hate pure chinese creatures.

here's a song i can't get outta my mind.

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry

Cry.....

I was here
You were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
Gotta get over you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind
For the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I'm down, I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down...
I guess I'm down...
To my last cry...

these chicks dont even know the name of my band..

2004-07-05T21:37:00.000+08:00

Ok. there you have it.

H . I ---- K . A . D

raine's back from my lil walk on the moon.

dah dah dah dah.

dee dee dee dee.

OK. I SERIOUSLY ain't got no musings to holler about. shall try.

2nd week into school. or is it the 3rd?

the scenario each day's this way:

open eyes, wash up, change, pack bag. Drag bag and feet all the way to the bus-stop
where i patiently wait for 23 with untidy hair, untied shoelaces and garfield-eyes.

cool huh?

ooh. bad. i fell asleep while typing. i had a dream!

uh.. nothing glorious. was standing in between 2 trees. then i snapped my fingers. then i was on a swing between these trees. and i swinged like no tmr. and i woke up.

dreams seriously works in funny ways.

2004-06-29T00:37:00.000+08:00

yesteryear, yestermonth, yesterday

memories, they can be inviting.but some are altogether mighty frightening.

2004-06-29T00:20:00.000+08:00

yup. memories.

ever had a time you accidentally flip thru
some old photos and all of a sudden,
loads of images just continuously flash
across your mind like an old film running?

those images portraying those times of
happiness, wankiness, fun, thrill and
yeah, sadness.

or another powerful tool for scooping up old,
forgotten, washed-out, hidden memories.
-through songs.

you can never underestimate how some songs
function like a play button, releasing
scenes long thrashed at the back of our head.

i miss some of those old times. really.

someone said to always look forward, no?

2004-06-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

Five Ten Day!

mmmm. back back back.

2004-06-27T13:02:00.000+08:00

week's been?

- cool -

school?

- a blast - with liv, kad and the boys. love it la.

first wk and we're figurin out ways to skip lessons, hving tim sum, ang-keonging with carlsberg on the tables. our pretty poly days. i love it.

work?

- yes. i'm feelin a wee bit of stress from tcs and fyp. -

tt means im gonna go full throttle startin up that rusty engine. red bull!

play?

-lagi best-

weekends always complete with them around. i'm havin fun, can't ya see?